It feels like years have passed since I last posted! It also feels like whenever I do post now, it is just for a quick update! Well, such is the life of a mother. Unexpected, busy, and messy.
I’ve taken a part time job as one of our county’s sexual assault advocates. As you can imagine this is hard work, and can demand a lot of decompression time after a training or shift. So far, I haven’t had to work face-to-face with survivors, but the research and training a lone is rigorous and for me, can only be taken in small doses.
When I’m not doing that, I am trying as best I can to be present to my family and cherish them. Getting a first hand look at the atrocities humans commit against one another intensifies my instinctual desire to bond closely and love on my children. To leave them without a desire to look for an imitation of my love elsewhere, and to find certainty and confidence in it.
Both jobs have been equally exhausting and rewarding. As rigorously as predators are planning their evil, there are amazing humans planning prevention against them. My work has strengthened my faith in humanity more than it has robbed me of it.
In any case, that is why I have been so absent. I’m still taking time to care for myself. Zumba, weight lifting, tea, and books have all consoled me and relieved my stress at different times these past few weeks. J and I celebrated our 5th anniversary and have been making some plans to really focus on that success next month when the calendar is less congested. Until then, we are just taking it a day at a time.
Wishing you well, readers! Have a good week.
Cora is just shy of 5 months, and her personality is exploding! She loves watching Sophie run around, to is easy to make laugh, and overall: she is a happy baby now. The colic is gone, and while she still gets into fussy fits right as she is about to fall asleep, I want to say the worst is behind us.
This is my favorite age… Babies are getting independent enough to have their own personality, but still dependent enough to be cute, cuddly babies! It had been awhile since I tried doing an indoor photo shoot with Cora, so we gave it a shot with this cute bucket and some summer time blooms. I wish I had had more natural light to work with, but there were thunderstorms on and off all throughout the day leaving us at mercy of my camera flash.
Now Sophie is at a stage where she has to coming running in and participate in whatever we’re doing. This also makes my little photo shoots more difficult as back drops get pulled down and props, well — destroyed. BUT I had the good sense to stick her on the potty chair, first.
Cora idolizes her sister. Even when Sophie is trying to bury her in toys, or poking her out of curiosity, she is always smiling with her eyes locked on big sissy. I love watching them interact, especially since I know there will be a day when they will fight. For now, it is sweet sisterly bliss.
Didn’t I just do one of these? I can’t believe how fast she is growing! Cora is sleeping better, fussing less, and smiling more. She still wakes up throughout the night, but the period of time which she spends sleeping has increased to 4 hour chunks, which makes getting up a little easier. Still no teeth in sight, but don’t let her get your knuckle in her mouth or she will bite, HARD. Cora is as active as ever, rolling around on both sides, kicking her legs like crazy, attempting to sit up when she is put in a reclined position, and standing in her exersaucer. Despite all the energy she burns, she has still been able to pack on the pounds. She loves being lifted up into the air while I say “super baby!” That usually gets me a smile and some giggles. We still giver he a pacifier, and she shows no sign of giving it up any time soon, which is fine by me since it does its job of pacifying her on a daily basis.
We like to hold her up like she is standing, and then pretend to have Cora chase Sophie. Both of the girls get a kick out of it, and so do we! Cora is extremely alert, loves conversation, eye contact, and physical touch. The epitome of an extrovert!
My new ring sling has become our best friend. Since she likes that constant contact and attention, being worn in a baby carrier is the perfect solution for us. Sophie didn’t like being confined by any type of carrier or wrap, but Cora couldn’t be happier.
We are bonding a lot better, especially now that we are both getting more sleep, and allowing our best selves to shine through, even in the tough moments. The more we learn about Cora’s personality, the more we fall in love with her.